Not that I really worry about it. Blog-Verkehr ist unberechenbar. Expect random German sentences thrown in with the rest of it from now on. I’m really trying to re-awaken what used to be a complete second language. Vor 8 Jahren. I hope that my readers who are fluent in German will correct any inevitable awkwardness in my writing because with the loss of vocabulary due to lack of use, Google Translate is my best friend right now. ((and it really sucks))
In fairness, I haven’t spent much time on the internet at all in the last couple of weeks and it’s not likely to get any better before Solstice. I’m busy. And I got rid of my smartphone.
I and the tiny group I with whom I regularly practice were asked- *asked!*- to lead a ritual for Midsummer this year. Wir wurden gefragt, da unsere Praxis ist anders als die lokale Merheit. See, most of the folks in the surrounding counties are a variety of Wiccan. I’ve read a few Wicca-centric books (most of us have) but the practice never really appealed to me on any deep level. Ich bin vertrauter mit Druidry und bin selbst ein Heide.
It’s odd to me, after going so many years eschewing all labels, to claim that one. “Heathen” is a label fraught with complications- many of them entirely internal to the movement. The word has a lot of baggage, to use a wonderfully American idiom. We have all decided that we can claim it. We feel that we qualify, even if we are “queer-happy Loki-lovers” according to one individual who shall remain nameless. You’re godsdamned right I’m a queer, happy, Loki-lover. I *like* it this way. I doubt I could translate that and have it make sense.
Various definitions of gay aside, (now see, that’s a joke that I can only make because this is my native tongue. The people who can make subtle linguistic jokes like that in multiple languages are amazing to me.) I do feel that we qualify at Heathens. Mostly because we think so, but also because of the way we choose to live. Unlike so many (too many…) in my generation, there is at least a part of my family that I care about very much. My family (the part that hasn’t treated me like shit) and our home are sacred to me. The land has fed and succored me my entire life. Ich stehe mit den lokalen Geistern auf gutem Fuß.I believe that is the correct expression for being on good terms? Correct me if I’m wrong- please! ((Danke Solveig for the corrections!!!)) I have been pagan with and without community and I have discovered that I prefer community- especially a heterogenous one! I think that as long as I remember how much more interesting life is in a community of people who don’t match- be it outwardly or inwardly- then I am not likely to fall prey to the insular (and sometimes outright racist) attitudes that can be found within Heathen communities. We all feel this same way. While there are other gods among our personal experiences, they are our personal experiences and we keep them that way. Mostly, we find ourselves drawn to the North of Europe for our inspiration and connection to things bigger than ourselves.
Vielleicht dieses Label wird nicht reichen. Perhaps I will cast it aside in due time. For now it seems to fit and it has led me to some interesting opportunities. If anyone needs me I’ll be working on planning an appropriate Midsummer. If I’m not working in the garden, mowing grass, building a new chicken house, or trying to figure out how the goat got out *this* time.