Seriously just imagine some great creature stirred from slumber, slowly swinging its massive scaled head around toward the chatter you and yours were ignorantly making, thinking the great hill you were sheltering under was in fact only a hill. It’s a deep bass rumble, at the very bottom of your range of hearing, and it shudders through you and scatters your beasts who clearly have more sense than you. Is that an eye blinking open?
There is a lot of swearing ahead and very little political correctness. I am going to try very hard to make my point without talking about the shit I’ve had to deal with because I don’t think that will be very helpful. Other bloggers please take note because I’m really sick of hearing everyone’s sob story. This here generally empathic and sympathetic human has had efuckingnough of your sob stories and I will be exercising a little self care right about now.
I just read my WordPress Reader and checked up on my email. It’s been a while, so there was a lot of Dreck to get through.
So much utter bullshit.
If you are one of those readers of mine who is going to want to yell at me from some pedestal of righteous superiority please go away right now. If you’re going to whine at me about how I should be more sensitive then please go away. If you seriously think that your outlook on the world is in some way better because you have expressed some political correctness recently then please go away. Just go.
Fuck your hashtag waving, keyboard activism. Lives matter. Period.
Humans fuck up. Sometimes we get each other killed because we are stupid but mostly it seems we kill each other because we are afraid. We will take any excuse and I mean ANY excuse to hurt each other because we are hateful, fearful, petty and brutal. Primarily coompassionate humans are a minority and most of us dance between the two extremes, just waiting for the right trigger to set off our brutish or tender sides.
Some of the best people I have ever known were cops. So were some of the worst. If you hate all cops because they are cops then you would have hated me until about a year ago so please fuck off.
If you don’t like a decision made by a legal body than feel free to say so. Please. Say it loudly and often. More importantly, find legal ways to change something. (I stress legal because if you are arguing against a legal entity then you’d best be arguing and functioning within the legal lines. Self preservation first. Vote the bastards out, get out and PEACEFULLY make their flaws known so that other people will help you vote them out. For the appointed instead of elected officials there are sometimes complex but viable appeals processes. Do your research, do the legwork. I’ll be glad to point you in a direction if you don’t know where to start.) The individuals who elected to respond by setting things on fire and hurting other people? I have no respect for you. None. You can also fuck right off.
Assuming you bothered to read this far and didn’t just run off in a butthurt huff, let me make sure you understand what I’m NOT saying.
I’m NOT saying that you are wrong to be angry. There is a lot wrong with our society right now. No one should face discrimination because of something they were born with. However, if you prove by your actions that you are a miserable sack of dogmeat masquerading as a human, then I am going to discriminate against you personally. Not a whole group that looks or sounds or whatevers like you- just you. Because you are an asshole.
I’m also NOT saying that people in uniform are always right. Most of them are good people with varying degrees of psychological calluses built up around the layers and layers of stress and anxiety and outright hostility they deal with every day. Some of them have taken too much damage and don’t belong in a uniform anymore. Some of them never should have been in a uniform to start with.
Did any of the people who have died so publicly recently deserve it? Well, everyone has to die of something. Just ask all the people dying not so publicly. Does that make it right? Hon, this may horrify you but I don’t object to killing people if the situation requires it. (Yes, I just said that all lives matter. Mine matters the most to me. Self-honesty, people, try it.) Did these situations require it? I don’t know. You know why I don’t know? Because I wasn’t there. You know what? Neither were you. Video clips that don’t show how something started are NOT the same thing. Try making a complicated dish using only the last third of the instructions and no ingredient list. Good luck. I only held a commission for a brief period and worked in a pretty low key area so I do not feel qualified to comment further. Please take that hint.
I don’t even know what to tell you at this point. I know perfectly well that this rant isn’t going to go anywhere. I know that my words will do nothing to stop the fires. Burn, then, if you can’t manage to get your shit together and deal with people instead of your own inner prejudices. Burn, then, if you can’t manage to discuss feasible, positive efforts instead of painting your fear across the world with the widest brushes you can find. Burn, then, in your own fears and ignorance and prejudices.
I can smell the proverbial smoke from here. Maybe I’ll roast some goat and veggies on the coals, assuming I survive the conflagration.
At least I have goat and veggies to roast. I do at least have an idea of how to function when this society makes its slow Roman-style collapse. Oh wait, it already is. If you remember nothing else from all of the frustrated obscenity above, remember this. As angry as this is making you, I tell you it is a distraction. What color your skin is or what job you held before will no longer matter. When energy systems fail, and distribution of food fails, and communications infrastructure fails, and war comes to our softened shores, and disease outstrips our hindered science, and blood flows for gods and godless alike- it will not matter. Melodramatic? Metaphoric? Mythical? Yes but all still true. I dream and I Dream and I see and I See. And all I See is Fire.
Build, instead of tearing each other apart. Be ready instead of complacent. Or burn.